Saturday, June 30, 2012

Too good to be true

You know that saying, "if it sounds too good to be true, it probably is?" Well, it is.  If you read my previous post, you will recall I was so excited to spend my Saturday with my husband - massages, light shopping & pedi's.  I was so surprised when he even agreed to do these things with me.  I went to sleep a happy & excited girl.  I woke up suuuuper late this a.m. (hey, I was exhausted after the week I had), and told him that I couldn't wait for our day, to which he replied, "I'm going fishing later."  Well, that was that! I tried for the massages but there were no female therapists available this weekend - scratch that. I told him we could still make the other stuff, and he certainly didn't want a pedi, either.  I guess I had him at a weak moment last night and he realized he wasn't into this more girly stuff. I'm not mad about it, you know?  First of all, that wouldn't have solved anything.  But I was so surprised that he had agreed in the first place, so it wasn't that hard to understand him not going.  He's such a manly man.  haha
You know that other saying, "it's easier to ask for forgiveness than permission?"  This one I'm not totally sold on. I don't operate that way, nor does my husband. We've never been like this.  I have friends who say it all the time, be it regarding their husbands, friends or just in general.  I just don't practice it. But today I kinda did.  I mean, I consulted w/my husband ("permission") about something that I was going to do, but when I told him after the fact, I felt so guilty! He reacted in a way I was not expecting, and it made me feel like poop. I was shaking, and nervous, like I had done something so wrong.  It was more than I had originally set out to do, so I get why he reacted negatively.  Sticker shock.  There was no yelling or arguing.  I knew he would be shocked but it still made me feel badly.  So I went home - took the long way, avoiding him (and w/out the pedi or other things I had wanted to do).  He was going fishing and I kinda wanted to wait until he was gone to get home.  Isn't that silly?  Acting like a scaredy-cat! We consult w/each other on everything.  Well, pretty much everything, especially involving money.  Okay, a lot of money.  I don't have to consult w/him on every little thing I buy, but if it's a lot, it's just a good idea to discuss.  Long story short, it was worth it, affordable & he will get over it.  Bad thing is when I know I upset him, even if he gets over it, I punish myself - thinking too much.  He came home from fishing and was still a little upset, I could tell. He'll be @ his dad's tomorrow w/his brother, so maybe he'll be more comfortable when he comes home.
I can only hope... ;)

xoxo

Friday, June 29, 2012

t.g.i.FINALLY!!

finally Friday...
finally end of the month @ work...
finally stopped raining (bye bye trop storm Debby!)...
finally home...
finally another Friday post!!

This sure has been quite a week, huh?  We've had so much rain here in Jacksonville from Tropical Storm Debby, it was crazy.  My backyard was flooded a bit, but no where near the destruction they are experiencing in west Florida.  My heart goes out to all of the families that couldn't get to their homes or businesses.  That got me thinking, what is worse, flooding or fires?  My goodness, the fires in Colorado! I wonder what our hurricane season will be like this summer. I think we all may want to start prepping for the season if the hurricanes will be worse than this storm was.  I must admit that not once did I think, "gosh, when will this rain stop?!" I mean, we are in such a drought here in FL, now we'll hopefully be at less risk for fires.  I mean, rain = wet feet/shoes. How do we remedy?  Rain boots!!!  So my search for rain boots is on!  I've found some on amazon.com that I love, and a coworker walked in w/the same style this week.  Sold. I'll be purchasing these *much needed* boots this weekend.  That's improvising, and overcoming.  ;)

I'm also glad that I survived work this week.  Our manager left us last week, so we knew that it would be a little hectic w/out him.  One of my teammates (there are 3 of us) was out of town on vacation all week (why at the month & quarter end?! lol) so we were prepared for his absence.  However, my other teammate suddenly got ill & was also out all week!  I know what you're thinking... hooky? Nope.  Fully legit.  Her daughter got the flu, and you know what that means... she got it also.  These inevitable things that happen to parents.  Thank goodness I haven't contracted anything from my Coco.  (another plus of not having kids right now...) Call me the "Lone Ranger," baby, b/c I was reppin' for our dept!  Fortunately, she was able to work from home, which was awesome, and made it not as stressful.  I worked closely w/my acct dept (or they w/me, rather) and it all just flowed so nicely.  Amen & AMEN! All in all, it was quiet, super busy and very productive.
We ended the week on a good note, and when I got home, my husby decided to take me to dinner.  We laughed, talked a ton, and joked around.  It was great.  Now we're settling down for our night.  I can't wait for tomorrow - somehow I got him to accompany me to an appt in the afternoon.  I baited him w/a massage (we're both going to get one) & a pedi!  Yep, he's going w/me!  Can't wait for our Saturday Couple's Bonanza!!
How did you spend this Fancy Friday??

xoxo

Tuesday, June 19, 2012

Time is on my side, isn't it?

oh Tuesday, hello there. Please don't go away so quickly!  I feel like we were just together and then you went away in a flash!  And now here you are again - please hang around all you like.  It's your day today.
Oh time, it sure does pass, and when I blink, it's gone. where has June gone?  Ya, believe it, folks, it's almost July.  Then Aug, then Thanksgiving and then omg Christmas! Whaaaa?!?! Okay, breathe.  "Deep breathe" as my friend and I used to say. (and no, that is not a grammatical/spelling error.  it's intentional -e.)  So as I look back at the time, my little miscarriage happened already 8 months ago.  Just think, had that been a healthy pregnancy, I would be about to burst any moment!  Oh how exciting!  Well, how exciting it would be, but my time will come again.  time... oh my. But seriously, I was thinking about that the other day, and how quickly time has passed since that day.  I feel like it was maybe a month or 2 ago, not 8.  I wonder if pregnancy is like that, though.  Does it go by too quickly?  Sheesh, what doesn't?  Either way, I cannot wait for the day!  I was talking about pregnancy w/my husband the other day, b/c I was feeling really down.  I was not trying to fish for sympathy, b/c i know that's not appropriate or even necessary, but i was just being well, a girl, and I let it get to me.  We go through these emotions and feelings that guys don't ever understand. What I do appreciate though, is that my husband did try, after I asked him to do so.  I asked him to give me a moment to just get this off of my chest. So here it is: I am just thinking that it has been 8 months, and we've not been as proactive about trying for a baby as we could/should be.  Well, the past couple of times it was just poor timing on our part.  Knowing now that I can get pregnant (thank you, Lord!), if we don't get pregnant this next time, I asked him to go to the dr (ob or infertility) with me - for both of us.  It doesn't hurt to do a little research, right?  The distance that I/we would go I will not get into at this time, b/c I've not even set foot down that path of the journey.  I am just at a point where we will try again, do things a little differently maybe (wink!) and see where it takes us.  My husband told me that I need to not dwell on this; to move on, things will work out.  He has a way of getting right down to it, and I've tried to get him to be gentle since I'm a girl, not a dude. He did, and I was so happy to have him care for me like he does.  He reminded me (as he does often) that God will take care of it.  We're in a really good place w/each other right now, w/our little Coco, in the rental where we live.  It's like he's telling me to look around - appreciate what we have.  Don't worry about what we don't have, our time will come.  I love him so much - more & more each day!  He's quite a catch!
    I have to confess, I have not sincerely gotten on my knees and prayed about this.  I feel like once I do, God will say, "finally! I knew that I had your heart 90%, but you have to give me that last 10%!" I am working on something right now, within myself, and I have this voice in the back of my head telling me that i need to let go of it. Let go of what is holding me down.  Release myself to Him.  It's hard to give up some "habits" you know?  Be it foods, drinks, activities, shopping...(shh!!), it's hard.  I'm currently working on my diet - joined a famous internet site that will help me out, and am ready to get in shape. Even thinking about buying my husband a bike, so that he can ride along w/me as i walk.  Some of you reading this may think, well, God won't make you healthy or lose weight alone.  He won't. He will help me when I call on Him, to give me the strength, endurance, motivation.  But I have to get off my duff and do it myself!  Hello --- rewards!! Smaller sizes! Healthy!  Happy!  Sexy!! Yes, I need to brink sexy back.  Let's not act like being in a healthy shape or feeling really good about yourself isn't sexy.  That will flow over to my husband's eyes and then well, you know what happens next!
     Let me say that I appreciate all of the encouragement from my friends and family, so I'm certainly not distraught about all of this.  it just gets me thinking.  I've officially began to think "too much" about getting pregnant, when for so long I have said that I had not been doing that. I think that's gotten me stressed out b/c I'm late... like 4 weeks late.  But don't fear or get too excited, i took a test and it came back negative.  
    So is time on my side? Sure, if I use it to my advantage. And at this point, maybe it's time to get myself in shape & healthy for baby.  Gosh, i've been saying that for maybe 6 years, but time is of the essence.  I'm knocking on 34yrs, so if I want to pop out 2 kiddies, get to stepping.  Don't think I won't go all Tori Spelling and get pregnant right after popping one baby out like she did!  I'm known for being late, but in this case, TICK TOCK!!  

xoxo --- stay fancy!
p.s. no joke, I checked my email after posting this, and there was an email from thebump.com w/tricks for fertility... oh!!

Saturday, June 16, 2012

so long... or not?

well, i did it. i deactivated my facebook account.  so what that it's for the 3rd, maybe 4th time i've done it. but i did it... why? well, why not? more recently, it's been my demise. some people have misunderstood my comments, and maybe i have theirs. i also am doing it to sort of protest the fact that it's become the "official" way to communicate w/each other. why? first it went from the cell phone to text, then to facebook.  oy. i like that i can be in touch w/my family on fb - all my cousins & brothers, but not to a point that it was the only form of communication. also, the friends that i mostly communicate with i email/call/text on the regular.  so i may be back later, but i am ready to be done w/this. i have a blog, twitter & email.  surely if someone wants to reach me, they'll find me! ;) besides, now it's time to really get started on those projects, devotionals, jewelry making....
xoxo





oh crabs --- i just realized all my pics were on facebook!! i may have to go back. darn! cutting back, that's for sure. wonder if i can block everything? eh whatever. 

Silly little things

Coco and me, last Friday night. just being silly!



Omgorgeous Saturday!

Hey! Thought I'd share a pic of our lunch outing at a local fish camp. It was gorgeous out, so I threw on a dress and sandals. LOL moment: my husband said I needed to pull my spanx up bc he could see them! So glad my hubby is on alert for my fashion faux pas. Have a great weekend!
xoxo


Friday, June 15, 2012

T.G.I.Fancy!!

And it sure is! Maybe it's bc I'm wearing my favorite pearl necklace, or bc my coworker said my outfit was "so fancy!" Either way, it's fancy Friday. And this may just be the start of something very fun. Fancy Fridays! I almost wore a dress today, bc I scored some super cute navy/white striped espadrille wedges at target, but I needed a cardi & currently need to update my cardi collection.  Yes, "need" is the appropriate word.  So I went for this cream blouse (old navy), jeans and a turquoise cardi. Of course I'm rockin my fave tan suede peeptoe  shoes (previous post). What are y'all wearing that's on this Fancy Friday?
Xoxo

Tuesday, June 12, 2012

for lack of a better word...

defeated. for lack of a better word, i feel defeated.  it's not so much that it's self-inflicted, but knowing when/how i do it to myself. in this case, i totally brought it on myself.  still not sure why, though.  it's not b/c i got upset at my mother for no apparent reason, it's that i recognized it while i was doing it. my mom was only trying to give some motherly advice to which i snapped back, "i don't even care about that. i'm over it." it didn't end well. it ended with no explanation, or too much & me wanting to throw my cell phone so far out the window! i knew that i had been unnecessary in snapping, but i just thought i had earned the right to be a smarty pants. i didn't.what a lame thing to think. it's never right to be rude, but we do it anyway. why? i don't like it when people snap at me. i try to think that there was something else going on in their lives that made them mad, not me. i guess this is kinda true, b/c i've had a lot on my mind lately. but still... no right to be rude.  just b/c i try to think it's not me that upset them, what's to say that they'll do the same for me? i can't predict or control that! and it's not fair to assume that they will be as polite. be kind to one another!  sheesh these life lessons!  argh!!
so now i'm sitting outside, watching coco play & waiting for the 'skeeta's to bite, trying to bury my head in the sand. i'll call her tomorrow...

Friday, June 8, 2012

Fun Friday

<p>Hey! Figured I'd show off my nails today. Well, I have been sporting gel nails for a while and I love them. They are so good to my nails, but I'm not polishing them weekly anymore. I feel like I'm neglecting my inner nail artist. So... I soaked em off last night - not picked off - and filed them down (they were long, but still strong thankfully), and got to thinking... nude nails for sure, so I applied OPI's Samoan Sand. Toes? I had picked out a darker aqua color and applied. I had to walk around for something and when I looked at my tootsies, I didn't care for the color. I hate that! Going thru the process and then wanting to change it. Story of my life! Or at least my manicured life.&nbsp; So I figured I'd just polish over (my little lazy trick), and found my next best dark, OPI's My Private Jet. Then I played a little and here's the result. Share your nail tips!
xoxo


Sunday, June 3, 2012

back in the saddle...

hey all! I know it's been a while, and I apologize for that.  I've been a total slacker. I've written down numerous topics to discuss on my blog, but haven't taken the time to sit down and do it.  I purchased this cute little 10" laptop, with the intent of doing my social things like pinterest, blogging, etc.  I didn't even register my laptop until today, finally!!  (for my extended warranty that Walmart provided for $59, a full year after the 2 yr factory warranty expires. nice!) I've not done one blog since.  Oh wait, the previous post was on this.  So since I don't want to get up and go hunt for my blog topic idea list, I'll just freestyle for a minute or 8.  ....and now i don't know what to talk about.
My grandmother Mamanell just took me out to California w/her to see my uncle graduate the first class at his college (and to visit my adorable aunt Mary!!). He was also retiring, so it was kinda a big deal. My mom wasn't up for the trip, being a little more anxious than I (and by "little" I mean a LOT), so I told my grandma that I would gladly go.  She even gifted me w/my ticket - bonus!!  It was a lot of fun!  We were in El Dorado Hills, which is just outside of Sacramento.  It was lovely.  Not as green (where we were) than here in Florida, but it was pretty.  Rolling hills of tan (or gold if I want to sound fancy), with bulls, sheep, cows, llamas.  Not llamas, but those things that look like that, and people have them for their fur?  Alpacas.  Ya, them. It was great!  Wine country - Sonoma.  So nice.  :)  Let me first say that my grandmother is 85yrs young.  My mom booked us nice seats, towards the front of the plane, with wheelchair service to and from each gate.  Everyone at each airport was very pleasant to deal with, so that was a blessing.  We flew from Jax to Dallas to Sacramento. I would say that we went the same way back, but I'll get to that part later. I am nervous about flying, I've not flown since my honeymoon 5 yrs ago, so I'm out of practice.  I was looking forward to the body scan, and was a little disappointed that it only took like 2 seconds to do it.  I thought, with all the hub-bub and crying about it, that it would be very intrusive and annoying.  It wasn't.  It was like standing in a spray tan booth, but only for 2 seconds. Mamanell got the full pat down, b/c she was in a wheelchair, lucky thing... Ok, so we got off w/out a hitch from Jax, flight was on time, etc.  We get to Dallas, get to our gate, board the next plane, and sit for an hour on the plane! Thank goodness for so many things: the a/c was working & it was cold; the flight attendants were on point w/service & friendliness; the passengers were all in good spirits - it was a FULL plane, mind you.  One flight attnd. got on the speaker, apologized for the delay, said he didn't really know what was going on, but if we were thirsty, come on back to the galley to get a cold drink.  lol!  He said that one more time, too. Funny. Then the captain came on and said what was only minor was now major; there was a fuel leak in the wing, and we had to deplane, and get on another, in another terminal, and had to depart in 25 min!  Yikes!!  So thankfully, Mamanell was strong enough to get up and go, we got our service, rode the train to the next terminal, and after a few more hiccups, got off the ground a couple of hours late.  Hey, I got a free drink b/c of it, and I don't mean a coke!  So by the time we got to Sacramento, and all tucked in bed, it was 3a.m. our time [Eastern].  We had a great week!  Graduation was on Saturday, followed by a luncheon for my uncle, by the faculty.  Listen, my uncle David is one of the most humble persons I've ever known; he's just like my grandpa Dad-O (his dad).  Had Mamanell & I not been out there to witness the respect, admiration and love this faculty has for him, he would've just said that there was a luncheon, no biggie.  It was really awesome to be a part of that, and to see/hear it first hand.  The next day we went to Sunday school @ their church, then went to the capital & "old Sac."  Monday, traveled 2.5hrs north to Healdsburg and got to visit a couple of wineries. Seghesio & Jordan Winery.  Yummy!  I am once again a lover of red wine. It's been a while, but I've fallen for it! Tuesday my aunt & I drove up to Cooper Vineyards & were lucky enough to score a private tasting.  Thank goodness, b/c it was so tasty.  I found my favorite wine there, and bought 4 bottles! It was a nice time, and I enjoyed my trip very much.  Had my first In-N-Out  burger, so delicious.  We also got to see Mamanell's aunt, who is 97yrs old.
By Wed we were ready to come home. I missed my husband terribly, and my little Coco.  Mom had been suffering a migraine the entire time we were gone, and Don & my friend Carrie had stayed w/her both, 2 nights each.  So kind!  My bro went over to take care of her also.  So we were ready to get back.  Now here's where the real adventure begins. As I was getting ready that morning, I thought twice about putting my watch on, and just trusting my cell phone (since it updates time zones automatically).  Then I put my watch on & figured I'd update as I go (as I had done on the way out to CA).  This is an important part of the story, just wait.  Leaving Sacramento, no problem. We had our boarding passes in safe places, got to our gate no problem. Boarded the plane, landed in Dallas easy.  Boom, half way done. I moved my watch forward an hour, and looked at it thinking we had so much more time than I had originally thought/based on our itinerary. We got to the next gate at 5:25 (per the time on the screen there) and I just didn't think about the fact that we had to board at 5:55 for our 6:25pm flight.  Looking at my watch, wait, we have more time!  Went to the food court, we got a sandwich, drinks. I called my mom, told her all was well, text my husband, even stood in line for frozen yogurt!  I got a weird feeling after a little bit, and looked at my phone clock again.  6:26pm.  Panic.  "Ma'am, what time do you have?" (to a lady sitting across from us.) "6:25" Super panic.  Sh@t!  I mean, shoot!!  We threw all our stuff together and I high-tailed us out of there!  Running down the airport, in heels, pushing my granny in a wheel chair, we made it back to our gate.  No one was there. Nothing was on the screen w/the flight time, etc.  I frantically asked someone sitting there what flight he was waiting for, to which he replied, "Pittsburgh."  Shib!!  oh no!  I ran to the next gate, and asked again. We missed our flight.  5 min prior!  Had I not left the gate, had we not sat down to eat, had we not had frozen yogurt, had I set my watch ahead 2 hours, not 1... we would've been okay.
Now, I've seen plenty of movies and tv shows to know what to do next, I asked (frantically) for another flight to Jacksonville. Sure, 7:15 (hope!!) -- tomorrow a.m.!! (NOOOOO!!!)  Oh wait, Orlando!  Yes, got the same 2 seats on the flight, leaving not 30 min later, no extra charge.  Amen, thank you Lord!!  We were finally on our way home!  I called my husband and gently begged him to go on to Jacksonville's airport, b/c our bags were headed there!  So he (in his sling from his shoulder surgery a week prior) went out there and slung my big ol' suitcase & Mamanell's and got them home.  I had to rent a car in Orlando, only $22 thanks to my USAA discount, and we headed home!!  We landed in Orlando just before 11pm, and rode out of there then.  Got Mamanell home safe at 2am, and we were home at 3am.  I showered, and hopped into bed. Up at 6:45am just hours later, made it to work on time!! As I was turning the rental car in (I had left it at Mamanell's house, near my work, so I wasn't risking anything), turns out there was a ding in the back bumper.  REALLY!?!? They didn't walk around the car or note anything in front of me as I was leaving Orlando, and I wasn't as alert b/c I felt like a fool for missing the flight, and b/c we needed to get home! So I filed a claim w/USAA, and waited.  For a week. No response from the rental car folks.  Sheesh, really?  I called and thankfully got someone just this Friday (a week later) and told her that this was bad business, and didn't make sense for no one to call me.  I am in customer service, I get it.  But correspondence is key!! So after all this mess, I'm pretty sure that all is fine and the ding was no issue (it was smaller than the guidelines they go by 7 they hit my cc already).
phew.................  I would love to go to Cali again.  Not thru Dallas.  Not wearing a watch.  Not without my husband.  ;)  It's good to be back!

p.s. I promise my next post won't be this long!!