So far so good. My first week back to work is coming to an end, and I must admit that it wasn't as difficult as I had anticipated. I will have one more week of these glorious half days before I come in full time. They are great! Too bad I can't continue, but there's nowhere near enough time in a half day to do the work we need to do that's for sure. I've been able to come back to a storage room here in the office to pump, so that's been convenient. (I had written "nice," but let's be honest, pumping your breasts for milk at work doesn't really qualify as "nice.") I'm actually back here now, pumping away. I clock out to do it and spend about 20min. All for the cause, ya?
In a nutshell, what we've been going through during my time out, and while I was preparing to return to work has been nothing short of interesting. Primarily in regards to child care. My mom is set to take care of Ava only 2 days a week - Mon & Tues. Originally we had found a nanny months ago, but due to some family complications, she had to back out. I was devastated, because I really liked her, and because I was to return to work in 2 weeks, but completely understood. Family comes first. That's what my concern was for - my family. After speaking to my work, mother, father, husband, trying to have everyone on the same page, I had a decision to make. Do I find another nanny, or do I look for a part time job? It's this a sign? Surely it couldn't be, how could I make a decision in a week, that would affect our family for some time to come? We prayed about it a lot. I couldn't walk away from a job I'd been at for 9 years. Not that easily, and not after the way they'd been to me during this maternity leave (so good!). Plus who leaves a secure job after 9 yrs, having just had a baby, and just bought a house, with no job to go to? Um... not I! I went in the hunt quickly for another nanny. My mom put her feelers put at her church, I went to my church, facebook, friends. My church didn't really have a network, but fortunately, mom's did. Almost immediately, within a day or two of mom contacting someone, we had a response. Amen! I met with our prospective nanny, and immediately had a good feeling. Not one of desperation, but one of comfort. At least ease. After she came to our house and Don got to meet with her both of us said a prayer of thanks. And I realized that this was my sign. That God will provide where there's a need. Not always in our time, but in His. So ultimately, my place is here, at my job, doing what I do. He will provide what we need to live day by day, to support our family, to afford a nanny, too make it. Over and over my husband told me, "it'll be okay," but sometimes that's hard to believe. One evening he cut me off from my fretful rant, took my hands in his, and started praying. When I let myself just stop and notice what is going on, get focused on the issue and realize that I cannot control everything, a great sense of relief comes. I felt better, feel in love a little more with my husband for paying with me, and put my energy where it mattered most - in our family and baby. It will work out, and it is. My husband, my baby, my God - they are my focus. As long as I remember this, and keep doing this, things will always be okay.
In a nutshell, what we've been going through during my time out, and while I was preparing to return to work has been nothing short of interesting. Primarily in regards to child care. My mom is set to take care of Ava only 2 days a week - Mon & Tues. Originally we had found a nanny months ago, but due to some family complications, she had to back out. I was devastated, because I really liked her, and because I was to return to work in 2 weeks, but completely understood. Family comes first. That's what my concern was for - my family. After speaking to my work, mother, father, husband, trying to have everyone on the same page, I had a decision to make. Do I find another nanny, or do I look for a part time job? It's this a sign? Surely it couldn't be, how could I make a decision in a week, that would affect our family for some time to come? We prayed about it a lot. I couldn't walk away from a job I'd been at for 9 years. Not that easily, and not after the way they'd been to me during this maternity leave (so good!). Plus who leaves a secure job after 9 yrs, having just had a baby, and just bought a house, with no job to go to? Um... not I! I went in the hunt quickly for another nanny. My mom put her feelers put at her church, I went to my church, facebook, friends. My church didn't really have a network, but fortunately, mom's did. Almost immediately, within a day or two of mom contacting someone, we had a response. Amen! I met with our prospective nanny, and immediately had a good feeling. Not one of desperation, but one of comfort. At least ease. After she came to our house and Don got to meet with her both of us said a prayer of thanks. And I realized that this was my sign. That God will provide where there's a need. Not always in our time, but in His. So ultimately, my place is here, at my job, doing what I do. He will provide what we need to live day by day, to support our family, to afford a nanny, too make it. Over and over my husband told me, "it'll be okay," but sometimes that's hard to believe. One evening he cut me off from my fretful rant, took my hands in his, and started praying. When I let myself just stop and notice what is going on, get focused on the issue and realize that I cannot control everything, a great sense of relief comes. I felt better, feel in love a little more with my husband for paying with me, and put my energy where it mattered most - in our family and baby. It will work out, and it is. My husband, my baby, my God - they are my focus. As long as I remember this, and keep doing this, things will always be okay.
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