just to be clear...

On my last post, I had mentioned something about not breastfeeding or pumping anymore, that it wasn't convenient for me. I want to be clear, the pumping is not convenient, and I know moms will agree with me. Breastfeeding wasn't the issue, I enjoyed doing that. It bonded me and Ava, and it was our moment. So to not be able to do that anymore just was emotionally painful. However, I am extremely appreciative that I was able to do that. I have to follow up with that because someone close to me was not able to. I cannot imagine the pain that she went through not being able to nurse her baby. She's a pumping fool, so diligent and scheduled with her pumping - I'm amazed. At 5 months, she's still pumping every 4 hours! But she had to become like that. I know it wasn't easy on her to do that, either. What I meant by "inconvenient" was just that. As a working mom, remembering to go back to the storage closet two or more times a day, for either 10, 15 or 20 min (sometimes it was longer), missing the work I was trying to do, trying to only focus on my baby, not my work, getting distracted looking at her sweet face on my phone, and then cleaning myself up afterwards, returning to my desk & getting back to what I was doing... well that's not convenient - for me. I'm just being honest. I miss breastfeeding, but one day it just seemed to stop. I'm so thankful that Ava has taken to the formula without a hitch. I started her on the enfamil newborn blend and worked her into the "purple one" for fussiness & gas because my girl has the toots! I actually tried to breastfeed her the other night, and it was so weird, it felt unnatural. Imagine that! So I wanted to clear that up because it was on my mind, eating at me. I didn't want anyone reading this to think I was a bad mom, I love my daughter and wouldn't want anything less than the best for her. I just have to be honest - that's me! xoxo

Football, fall & someone is now four months old

It's that time of year - FINALLY. Football is officially back y'all! Another season of some SEC football & NFL football too. Yes! I love it. It feels like it's been forever, so it's nice to have it again. Something to watch Saturdays, Sundays, Mondays & sometimes Thursdays. We're looking forward to the days when it's cool outside, we can open up the windows & sliding doors and enjoy the whole day.  Something about that, the cheering of the crowds, whistles blowing & the horns and drums playing fight songs that just complete my weekend.  Throw in some snacks, a drink of choice and your team colors and it's now perfect. Our friends all get along despite the rivalries, so that makes it easier.  It's FOOTBALL!!!
Another love: Fall.  That means pumpkin drinks, candles, lotions even hand sani. On the agenda this weekend: go to bath & body and stock up on the scents. I've seen a lot of posts about the drinks from Starbucks and they're looking tasty! Mmm maybe I'll get one on my way to bath & body! Ya that sounds good.
So on to the best part, our little miss.  So much had happened this week!  Little miss Ava has moved to her crib, it's official, she's in it to win it. I put her in this week or last week and she was so good, sleeping through the night. We're ALL sleeping better, so it's amazing. She's rolling over back to front, too. She had done dint to back last month, and now she's doing the opposite. I've also stopped breast feeding her. Ya it was extremely difficult, but I guess worse things have been known to happen, so I'm super grateful and thankful that I could breast feed her for so long. I've stopped pumping at work, too.  That's been difficult, too, but it's just not convenient for me. Ava got all her nutrients from me and my milk for the first three months. It's just hard coming to terms with her not drinking mommy's milk. *sigh* I keep telling myself or could be worse. All in all, its been a pretty big week here.  So as I lay here, finishing this up, I'll be staring at Ava on the baby monitor.  Coco has been watching over Ava while she sleeps, it's adorable. What's adorbs is how Ava's recognized Coco now and wants to grab her.  Coco just sits there and takes it. Such a good big sister!
Well I'm about to fall asleep. Y'all have a great weekend & Go Jaguars! Go Steelers!

xoxo

loving on sweet coco

lounging with daddy

lounging with daddy, in my cute giraffe shorts

Go Gators!!